The other day Shep picked out his own socks and shoes. I know, it's just socks and shoes, I need to chill on my emotion-o-meter. But for this mama, it meant more. My mini is choosing his own adventures now and most importantly, he's not worried about making the right decision or making a mistake. He's going with his gut. He's being bold, choosing the most colorful, fun, lets-get-it-done sock and shoe combo he can. He learned this from me, yet here I stand in awe of the little bit of magic he is making and fear I'm not measuring up.
I've been blogging for almost a year now (wahhh-whoooo). Truth be told I've slowed down a bit on my entries. Perhaps I was a bit naive about how much content I could churn out and how inspired I'd feel -- but I have been busy living life. You know...life, that funny thing that sometimes randomly grabs a hold of you, swoops you up and says "you're coming with me."
I'm learning that life doesn't care if you are ready, it just continues to happen. This summer, life has been amazing-confusing-powerful-and-wonderful all at once. Life has my brain asking my heart some pretty big questions about new work, new babies and everything in between. I feel like I am a few decisions away from legitimately living some major life-defining moments and I'm stuck wondering how to make it all happen.
Is it as easy as learning to say HELL YEA to the here, now and near future? That's easier said that done for someone like me who worries and wonders about pretty much everything. But maybe September will bring a feeling of fearlessness in my future endeavors.
I'm vowing to head into fall with my coffee in one hand and confidence in the other (cue the bevy of corny pinterest quotes I researched for this post). I know it won't be as easy as a toddler perfectly mismatching his socks to his shoes but maybe if I just try to stay open to whatever is coming next, without fearing or forcing it, I will gather up a bit of that magic my mini is making and put it to good use.
This blog post was originally going to be about lighthearted summer fun and games -- I had a whole paragraph about the importance of getting out and adventuring with your little ones. Thus, I hijacked that idea and and turned it into a brief confessional about this life I am actually living. So, on second thought, I guess it's still deeply rooted in the idea of adventure and wanting to do something wonderful with your time. And for me, that means taking some chances in the here and now. Now.